Arrgh since the asswaffle thinks that I am using him/taking him for his money I now have to get a job. Not a big deal except for the fact that I need flexible hours, be able to work part time, close to home, and have a very understanding boss that will understand that I need to leave when my child is ill. Add on to the fact that I have not worked in about an epoch. I have also been a shut in basically I have few friends either due to busyness on the other folks part or it just doesnt work out. So hard to make friends when I could barely leave the house either due to having a small child and the hassle of dragging someone at the time still in diapers out into the world and also having one car and being stuck in suburbia hell with little to no where to walk to or even a bus service to take me to X which takes all day or at least it seems to. Now I have my own car but, the daytime hours are more for chores and with the asshats sensitivity to all scents I cant hang out with too many people without either needing to take a shower, change clothes and be insanely jealous that they can wear x and I cant at all.
I was supposed to have surgery on my arm to remove a lump but, now it is a no go due to the lovely money issue and our insurance probably not covering a bit of it. It totally sucks donkeys. As for when I will get surgery on my arm it is a possible never at this point.
School will be starting next Wednesday and I am looking forward (because my daughter has been having a major attitude with me and really not happy when she doesnt get her way) and a bit sad because she will be back in school and will not be around to talk to. I will miss her despite her tude problem. I am not thrilled to be getting up so early but, I have been weaning myself back. It is still a struggle.
My husband is still being an ass. Sorry sad but, true I am not perfect I promise but, for me it is hard to hear during couples therapy that he is feeling that I am using him for his money. Yes he is the only one that works right now but, at the same time I feel as though I do everything except for working a job outside of the home. That was a shocker and admittedly a piss off for me. Also hearing today that my counselors office had a computer issue and that my appointment was lost for Friday. I called them and no their computers are fine the idiot thought I was not going to show up on Friday. I told them no and that I would be there. He however showed up yesterday at 6 pm (thankfully her 6 didnt show up) and they are trying to get him to understand that they will text him a reminder the day before. Now where he was for about 3 hours or so when he knows I have to discuss something important with him (I have to have surgery outpatient) and he cant show up early from work to discuss this with me is just another nail in the coffin it seems. After a weekend where we actually talked and laughed and just were the way we were before things went south between us. Almost seems to be a waste of time sometimes and frustrating.
We had our first counseling meeting and afterwards my brain felt like it had been stirred with a swizzle stick. Just having all that stuff dregged up again really just was not fun. I feel that at least we have made a bit of progress. I still feel like we have a long way to go though no quick fix here folks sorry. I had a serious headache and felt like my brain was about to explode but, then again it might have had to do with the high humidity here. Walking outside was so fun I felt like I was in a sauna without the towel.
My daughter is enjoying her summer camp. She has made glow in the dark bubbles so fun, blubber (unfortunately does not make the car float darn it), blowing up watermelons and even doing some chemistry I love my geeky girl and love that she is having so much fun. Plus as an added bonus I get some time to myself without constant interruptions and other fun things.
I am now taking steps to simplify my life. I have been getting rid of some books after I have read them. Ok right now they are sitting in a box to be gotten rid of in one fell swoop plus I get more money instead of doing it piecemeal. I have also put dates on at least two of my boxes so they have 6 months for me to either get in the box or it is out of here. I will go through the box because I think it has my obligatory 7 year income tax returns that we are forced to save in case of the dreaded Audit. Important papers will be the only things saved from this box.
Tonight I get to make my own hulla hoop at the library. So fun.
What fun things have you done lately?
If you are in the US we celebrate the 4th of July. Please use caution with fireworks and children. Even sparklers can cause serious burns.
Things have been going a bit better. My daughter got grounded for 3 days because she rode her bike on a busy street, spent $16 that was not hers to spend, and lied. She was not allowed to play with her “friend” for those 3 days. Other than that bit of excitement not much else is new. We did camp out in the backyard and it was a lot of fun.
What are your plans for the 4th if any?
We went to go visit my dad spend some time with him, to relax, and not have a lot of drama to deal with. We went to the arboretum to see a new exhibit of tropical plants. We also went to the zoo to see some new animals and revisit our favorites.
On our trip leaving to go visit my dad aka my daughters grandpa. My daughter wanted to wear some perfume to smell good for her grandpa. I had no idea she was going to spray it in the house but, she did and apparently the scent clung to the couch and one of the air purifiers. My husband was mad to say the least. So I decided not to call him while we were on vacation.
While coming back our flight was delayed and asked my dad to call my husband to let him know what was going on. Then we left earlier than expected but, I refused to call my husband. Once we arrived and I knew my husband would not be there to pick us up I decided to call my dad to let him know we had made it. My dad tells me that he spoke with my mom and she told him what my husband told her my in laws believe that my husband should throw me out, that I never cook for him and that he hates my cooking. He said that he wanted custody of our daughter and that he would fight me for custody.
I was shocked and really upset. We have agreed to try counseling but, I am not sure how to fix something this broken or if this can even be fixed.
I have been making plans either way. I am trying to possibly get a job teaching English overseas and I splurged and got both of us some luggage that will stand out. My daughter got Darth Vader and I got R2D2.
The past 3 months have been difficult in terms of the relationship I am in. It has been hard.
In May I fell in the parking lot of my daughters school after volunteering. I had to leave early because my debit card numbers got stolen and used to pay someones bills and purchases. It is now straightened out and I have all my funds back which is great. I was in a really good mood after being around “normal” people where wearing scents and other nice smelling and maybe not so nice smelling scents and not feeling guilty or it being seen as wrong. I fell but did not break anything which was good. My glasses even survived without a scratch. I wanted to cry but, had at that point was out of tears even after falling. I almost lost it when a woman witnessed my fall and came up to me to make sure I was alright. She wanted to give me a hug I could not handle someone being nice to me and sympathetic.
My relationship is hopefully getting better. My partner has gone in for allergy testing so I really hope this helps. It at least helps to know what he is or is not allergic to. He is deathly allergic to Hickory of all things and moderately allergic to rabbit and cat. Finally he can shut the snot up about being deathly allergic to Noel. He will be getting treated for his allergies. I really hope it works.
I also managed to piss off my mother in law. She gave her daughter a very expensive chair that she left in our garage and did not get rid of when she moved out about 2 years ago. Since then I have asked very politely for her to take it in her truck and dispose of it and she always has an excuse of one or the other. So I asked a friend with a truck if we could take it to her farm and put it in their dumpster. We did that but, she called me later that day saying I had no right and told me to come get it and take it to the dump myself. She also told me that she would be at my house every day with 4-5 bags of garbage for me to get rid of . Now my question is how 3 people who are barely home because they work long hours can produce that much garbage in a day? It baffles me.
Happy belated Mother’s day to all the hard working moms out there! I hope everyone was treated well on our special day.
My daughter made me breakfast, made a banner for me and with the help of my husband hung it up. She even pampered me by giving me a foot soak, painting my toes and doing my hair. It was a great way to feel special. My husband got up before me and made coffee and fed part of our hungry fur babies. It was nice to not have to do so much or at least not the normal things I usually do. I even slept in and that was really nice.
We went out to eat the day before because we were not sure how crowded it would be so I even got my Indian food fix at least for now. Plus as a bonus I even got to have leftovers on Mother’s Day.