Drama

18 Sep

I have decided that my daughter will be a great actress especially in any and almost all female roles for Shakesperian tragedies. We seem to go through a lot of drama each morning so far with getting our daughter ready for school.  It is almost too much.

My husband is still out of work but, has been getting some job leads and applying for jobs so there is hope at least until the possible reject letter from hades comes in the mail. If people even do that anymore.  It has been too long since I was in the job market.

Our daughter and the rest of us are finally over the ick we got somewhere along the way. So that is one good thing and our cats are feeling better as well.  We somehow managed to pass it on to them. Poor kitties.

Now it is just a matter of playing catchup for me it is with email and other things along with posting to this site.  For my daughter it is getting school work caught up and my husband getting jobs searched for, research about the company and applying for the ones of interest and a “good or decent” fit.

More simplifying

10 Sep

Today I finally let go the changing pads/bed pads that we had been using on our bed for a long while.  Since we moved and I know that can upset a childs rhythm and they might pee the bed even though they have been potty trained for awhile.  So today I took those along with a large purse that i have not used in several years it was time to say good bye permanently to these items.  They all went to goodwill and I feel so much better for it.  

I also got rid of a few of the many papers that my daughter brings home from school to the recycle bin.  Again it feels good to get rid of the clutter.  

Today my dad left for home and I will miss him.  I always do but, then I start to think that summer is right around the corner (even if fall and winter are not yet upon us) and I will see him again soon.  

My rabbit Noel has been eating like crazy.  It seems as though I am not giving her enough food to hold her for the evening or even day until I give her just a bit more food in the evening.  I really am trying to not over feed her and make her fat but, at the same time I am hoping that something is not too seriously wrong with her.  She is not pregnant so it is not like she is eating for 2 or more.  Not sure what to make of it.  If anyone owns a rabbit and can give me a few ideas about what might be going on I would appreciate it.  Of course it might be a thyroid issue as well. 

Visitor

9 Sep

Wahooo!  My dad has been in town for the past few days.  It has been great to see him.  We introduced him to the board game Pandemic it is a great cooperative game where you get to destroy and save the world at the same time.  It is a lot of fun.  My daughter played checkers with my dad and she lost but, that was ok.  We also introduced him to Zombie Dice an Chupacabra another dice game both were a lot of fun to play and are good fast games to play.  

Sunday we all just relaxed, talked, and just hung out.  My daughter got to spend more time with my dad so always a good thing.  

Today she is back in school so this evening and after school we plan to head on over to visit one last time before he leaves on Tuesday.    

I got a lot of sleep this weekend despite having that annoying cough that seems to come with my sinus infection.  I have been using my husband Neti Pot (a life saver) it has been helping me to feel a lot better by getting rid of the drainage and ick that I seem to have.  I highly recommend a Neti pot for colds, sinus infections and just to clean out the mucus in your sinuses.  

In an effort to simplify my makeup routine although admittedly I do not use quite so many products as the average woman does,  My makeup routine consists of eye cream, facial moisturizer, eye shadow and maybe some mascara.  I plan on getting rid of the eye shadow in favor of eye pencils instead for a bit of color but, not a whole lot.  I found some great and reasonably priced eye liners for about $3-4 a piece and plus vegan.  Not too bad.  Plus it will take up a lot less room especially when you travel.  I found one that is a flesh tone and another one in my favorite color of purple that will be the only two I will wear and use.  

Surprise!

4 Sep

Well our weekend was going pretty ok we all either got sick or have the worst sinus infection.  It was not fun.  I have been struggling with it.  I hate being sick.  It is getting better I can breathe and it is a bit more annoying.  

On the bright side we also got to get together with some friends and see a movie together How to Train Your Dragon 2.  It was/is a really cute and good movie.  I had promised our daughter that we would all go before school started.  It did not happen unfortunately for a few reasons.  So to make it up to her we decided to go during the long weekend and with her best friend who she has not seen  since August.  It was great to see everyone.  Our friends are expecting their 3rd child.  Not sure if it will be a boy or girl. It will be a surprise for them.  I am in the process now of making a baby blanket. for them using a few fall colors since the kiddo is due sometime in October.  So the blanket will have yellow, orange, and black.   I went a little Halloween theme.  .

The few surprises we have had is that my husbands contract where he was working is now up with no forewarning.  Not even a week.  It would have been nice to have a bit more notice even a week or a least a few days.  So now my husband is doing his best to find another job.  

The other surprise is that our water main broke outside last night so we are now on a boil water advisory.  Boy has it been a pain you never know how much you rely on water flowing through your taps until you actually have to boil and then wait it seems forever for it to cool down enough to actually use.  It really sucks especially when you want to give fresh water to your pets (cause they really need it), do dishes, cook, brush your teeth, wash your face.  It really has been a drag.  I hope we get the all clear sooner rather than later.  

Our three bad things are now over so now we get to have a run of better luck at least I hope.  

I also got a bit better understanding about my mother in laws behavior when she said the really harsh things to me is mainly because of her lupis, not getting enough sleep,and working too many hours 60+ usually.  It makes more sense but, it still doesn’t excuse.  It just helps to understand where she was at the time or at least the frame of mind a bit more.  

Weekend and better

27 Aug

This past weekend my husband got a small taste of what all I had been going through with our daughter.  Whew!  

We also talked and aired out the dirty laundry.  Ever since then things are sooo much better.  We are more open  with each other and most importantly we are talking.  I told him EVERYTHING that I was feeling Wednesday aka the hell day and thinking and what all happened.  There was no judgement, no yelling, no condemnations, nothing.  We are now on the same page so to speak..  We understand each other better now and he now understand what all is going on in our lives.  

 

I admit I jumped to a bit of a conclusion with my husband thinking i had no support but, it turns out I really do.  

 I did take a bit of my mother in laws advise and am giving our daughter an apparently much needed break once she gets home from school.  

I also understand where all some of her judgement came from and am not as mad as I was with her.  My husband is another matter.  Ah well, she inserted leg in mouth and really made him mad.  He has yet to confront her with what she said.  

 Today I went for a lovely massage.   I was wanting to have one once we got settled but, with my injury which is finally feeling better and i am convinced that the massage helped.  It feels a bit better.  

Quotes

22 Aug

“Life is a lemon and I want my money back”-Meatloaf

 “Sticking feathers up your ass does not make you a chicken”-Fight Club 

“To be nobody but yourself-in a world which is doing its best night and day, to make you everybody else-means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting”- EE Cummings

See yesterday was a really, really bad day and I do not have any support.  I thought I did with my mother in law but, alas no.  She called yesterday after our daughter passed out. She asked how I was doing and I told her I was trying.  Then she told me what type of person I am  not exactly a bad thing.  Then she told me how to fix things. Not exactly what I needed at the time.  She also threw something in my face that I thought was resolved.  

 Let me back up a bit and explain.  My daughter came home from school, had a snack, and then we did her homework.  We got to the Very last thing she needed to do before everything went wrong in a huge way.  She screamed and yelled at me, she threw a pencil at me.  I went down in the basement while she was screaming and shut the door.  Wow!!!!  

Then at wits end I really was wanting to just get away for a day even one night so I put in a call to a bed and breakfast trying to see how much it would be for a night.  My daughter demanded to know what I was doing, who I called, what it was about and she would not stop asking.  So I “lied” and told her I was calling to see how much I needed to save for our anniversary.  I did try to tell her it was none of her business but, after all that I had just been through I decided the small lie was better than more drama.  

 

I have learned with my family , my in laws, and husband that NO one wants to hear any of the bad they want me especially to shit or fart rainbows, sunshine, and unicorns along with the ability to be a mind reader.  Hence the need for a few quotes as a gentle reminder to myself and others that NO Matter what everyone else wants even the impossible mentioned above it is not possible and you just have to be yourself no matter what.  It would be nice if I had this ability but alas I am sadly lacking in this department.  

The world is full of beauty, passion, dirt, grit, war, and famine.  You just have to be strong enough to see the beauty and passion along with having the guts or machismo to deal with all the shit in between.  

 

I have had to call a friend long distance to get any support what so ever from someone. After a lot of tears, confessions, and just laying my soul bear that she still is there for me and still supports me.  This is not easy for me at all not one bit of it .  I pray to the Gods that my daughter does NOT have any more homework tonight because I do not think I can handle anymore.  I really dont without something giving.  

Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde

21 Aug

Last week was really difficult mainly because we are all getting used to a  new sleep and wake schedule.  

My daughter was more Mr. Hyde when I would have dealt much better with Dr. Jekyll.  This week it was explained why she was like this.  It turns out she was catching a cold.  She had a slight sore throat and a bit of the sniffles.  I thought it was no big deal and assumed it was allergies.  The poor kid went to visit her grand parents at their farm for the weekend and came back looking miserable and she had a fever.  So she missed Monday school and had a bit of homework to deal with yesterday.  I sent a note with her to excuse her due to illness.  with a copy for her teacher and one for the office.  The one to the teacher may not be necessary but, as I have learned very well as a former paralegal it is to CYA or cover your ass and have learned that one the hard way.  

This week it is better but, still rough. The up side is at least my husband has not yelled at me. The daughter is still being rude and loosing it when I tell her not right now or no to something then the drama ensues.  UGH!  I really just cant take much more of this.  Yes I know she is sick and perhaps sick of being sick and feeling lousy and I do have sympathy but, on the other hand it is not ok for her to be rude to me and go completely insane when I tell her not right now or maybe later or even no. Not sure how to handle this.  Yesterday I completely lost it and screamed (not very productive or ok for me to do that ) and yelled at her for about 5 min. straight. I felt like the worst mom EVER!  I even had to call a friend long distance to tell her what was going on and she helped me feel better and told me I am not the worst mom.  

 

When her dad comes home he is THE BEST and she listens to him and is hardly rude or difficult with him it just seems to be me. It is sooo fun.  Not.    

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